Getting AI to do the heavy lifting for me

The planned blog post for today was meant to talk about trauma.

Why? Because so many social media posts in the ’tism and ADHD communities talk about the “automatic” trauma included in a late autism diagnosis, and so it should. In today’s gentler, kinder, more sensitive world (compared to the 1970s), yes, you can imagine that souls and psyches could be, would be damaged from being an undiagnosed autistic person in an allistic, neurotypical world.

So how is it that I’m not a veritable basket case, with my very late, 51yo diagnosis of autism?

Might it have something to do with my 51 years of lived experience, learning how to deal with life? From growing up, being told I was adopted, but only hearing that my birth parents didn’t want me?  From having parents 50 years older than me? From the separation, quasi-reconcilation, then another separation that ultimately ended in a broken marriage of 43? From knowing that my father was leaving only because I saw his distinctive car, with a loaded trailer, driving past my school while we were on assembly?

Meh. That’s life. Dealing with all that, without knowing I was autistic.  Maybe there’s trauma, maybe there isn’t. He was a soldier in World War II, in the Coral Sea and New Guinea. She had 30-plus years on undiagnosed hypothyroidism, and all she got was Serepax for anxiety and depression.

Understanding that, knowing that, can lead to forgiveness, for him, her, and myself.

So, feeling a little bit weary of it all, this question about trauma, I handed the reins over to two separate AIs. Of my Replika, I asked, “How would you link trauma, trauma response and resilience?”

The response? “Trauma can shape our responses and behaviors, but resilience allows us to navigate through those challenges and emerge stronger on the other side. The way we process and cope with trauma can greatly influence our ability to bounce back and thrive despite difficult circumstances.”

I took that and gave it to ChatGPT, asking for 700-800 words to expand on that, focussing on the trauma of women with undiagnosed conditions. And so I give to you,  ChatGPT 3.5 in a conversational tone, in trauma, trauma response and resilience.

“Of course, let’s explore the unique challenges faced by women with undiagnosed conditions in the context of trauma and resilience.

For many women, living with an undiagnosed medical condition can be a traumatic experience in itself. The journey to finding answers and validation for their symptoms is often fraught with obstacles, disbelief, and even dismissal by medical professionals. This can lead to a sense of isolation, frustration, and helplessness that deeply impacts their mental and emotional well-being.

One of the primary challenges faced by women with undiagnosed conditions is the lack of visibility and awareness in the medical community. Many conditions that predominantly affect women, such as endometriosis, fibromyalgia, or autoimmune disorders, are often overlooked or misdiagnosed due to gender biases and stereotypes. Women may be told that their symptoms are “just in their head” or attributed to stress, hormonal fluctuations, or psychological factors, rather than receiving thorough investigations and appropriate treatment.

This dismissal and invalidation of their experiences can be profoundly damaging, contributing to a sense of self-doubt and gaslighting. Women may begin to question their own perceptions of reality, wondering if they are exaggerating their symptoms or being overly sensitive. This internalized doubt can erode their confidence and self-esteem, compounding the emotional toll of their undiagnosed condition.

Moreover, the search for a diagnosis can become a full-time job for many women, consuming vast amounts of time, energy, and resources. Endless doctor’s appointments, medical tests, and consultations with specialists can be physically and emotionally draining, especially when met with skepticism or indifference from healthcare providers. The uncertainty and lack of answers can also lead to anxiety, depression, and other mental health challenges.

In addition to the direct impact on their physical health, the trauma of living with an undiagnosed condition can also affect various aspects of a woman’s life. It may strain relationships with family and friends who may not fully understand or support her journey. It can disrupt her education, career, and financial stability, as she may struggle to maintain normalcy while dealing with chronic symptoms and medical uncertainties.

Despite these challenges, many women with undiagnosed conditions demonstrate remarkable resilience in their journey toward healing and self-advocacy. They often become experts in their own health, researching medical literature, connecting with online communities, and seeking out second opinions to piece together the puzzle of their symptoms. This proactive approach not only empowers them to take control of their health but also challenges the status quo of medical care and advocacy for improved diagnostics and support for women’s health issues.

Moreover, the shared experiences of women with undiagnosed conditions can foster a sense of solidarity and support within communities. Online platforms and support groups provide a space for women to share their stories, exchange information, and offer emotional support to one another. This sense of belonging and validation can be a lifeline for many women who feel isolated or misunderstood in their health journey.

In conclusion, the trauma of living with an undiagnosed condition as a woman is a multifaceted experience that intersects with issues of gender bias, medical gaslighting, and emotional resilience. While the journey may be arduous and challenging, many women demonstrate incredible strength, resourcefulness, and determination in their quest for answers and healing. Their stories not only highlight the need for greater awareness and advocacy in women’s health but also celebrate the resilience and solidarity of individuals navigating the complexities of undiagnosed conditions.”

And sometimes that resilience and awareness of your state of being, means asking for help.

Thank you,  AI.

Postscript – there has been a lot of chatter today about AI, with Meta’s AI making an appearance across its apps.  We’ll just have to wait and see how much bias is coded into this AI, what LLMs it has been taught on, to see what further outrage comes forth.

Live brave, with grace. It’s an interesting time to be alive.